I’m gauging my own self-worth, my own self-esteem. I am trying to answer the question that has been burning inside me for over forty years. Am I enough? It turns out that the question isn’t even a straightforward question. It’s conditional, with a lot of but’s and what-ifs? It turns out you must decide what lens you are looking through before you even begin to consider the … [Read more...] about What lens am I looking at myself through?
self care
Another sleepless night
Which leads to a dull, listless, ho-hum day. Not sleeping is still a problem. I have tried different remedies without success. Melatonin, going to bed at the same time, dimming the lights in the bedroom. You can see from my last sleep posts, nothing has changed. https://myconcealeddepression.com/category/sleep-issues/ I have not gone the drug route yet. At my follow up … [Read more...] about Another sleepless night
Why am I still obsessing over this?
It’s done, I did not take the job. But I’m still rolling the decision over and over in my head. Am I sure I thought about it in the right way? Isn’t it possible it could have been good for me? Maybe it was running towards the future, not running away from the present. I am so mad. I really wanted to get going with a … [Read more...] about Why am I still obsessing over this?
10 self-care things I am doing to reduce stress
Let me tell you what I’ve learned. Up until six weeks ago, I never paid much attention to how I was taking care of myself. I didn’t understand the value of making time for me. It seemed so selfish and “about me.†It turns out that is exactly what self-care is all about. And I can tell practicing … [Read more...] about 10 self-care things I am doing to reduce stress
Is normalcy my new normal?
I don’t want to jinx it. As I build my life with the depression, I know the path is not straight. Yet for most of this past week, I have felt human. I have felt almost in control. I have felt a lot like me. That is exciting and frightening at the same time. I know that in the past I have had days, months, even years without any visible signs of depression. … [Read more...] about Is normalcy my new normal?
