Depression can be sneaky. It has infested itself in my being and has taken up residence in my body as if it belongs there. I am angry this morning. And as I think about why I am angry; I am recognizing things that are happening that I must learn to think differently about. Living with depression is a full-time, 24/7 job. Keeping it from being in charge is what I am … [Read more...] about 11 Things Depression has done, and it’s only Wednesday
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With so many voices, why am I listening to that one?
It isn’t logical. There is no direct evidence that this one voice is correct. In fact, there is overwhelming evidence that this voice is not the one I should listen to. It is not the one I should pay attention to. I should not stay up late tossing and turning over this voice. I should not be thinking that this voice is right, and all the other voices are … [Read more...] about With so many voices, why am I listening to that one?
You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
Keeping depression out in the open requires constant attention. Ignoring it, or worse, assuming I am “over it,” has dire consequences. As I learn to live with depression, I am learning more and more about how it works. I am learning how secretive it wants to be, and how tempting it can be to follow its ideas. Understanding this has helped me see that depression isn’t only … [Read more...] about You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
What do you know, it really is not about me?
I get so caught up in myself. An unhelpful thought pops into my head and the next thing I know, I am off living in the future. I had been concerned about having my work email on my phone. Finding excuses and reasons why I could not get it set up gave me control over my relationship with work. This past weekend, I was working with a customer and decided to add the work … [Read more...] about What do you know, it really is not about me?
What am I Teaching People About How to Treat Me?
I have spent over 100 days building my life facing depression, with the mantra "depression is not my boss." And yet, with all the support groups, therapy sessions, psychiatrist appointments, and independent reading I have done, I have not owned up to my own self-worth. I realized yesterday that I have not created healthy boundaries for myself. I am allowing others needs … [Read more...] about What am I Teaching People About How to Treat Me?