Photo by Dariusz Sankowski on UnsplashHow do I know that the next page is a new chapter?Mostly because I am writing this chapter. And I have written every chapter of my life so far. However, many, if not every, chapter has its share of ghostwriters. And for the awards ceremony, depression is nominated for a supporting role. Had I not been genetically pre-disposed to have MDD, I … [Read more...] about This Is the Beginning of The Next Chapter in My Life with Depression
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Why Can’t I Just Make It Easy And Stop Facing My Depression?
Facing my depression, and saying it's name out loud, has been work.Sometimes the work has been exhausting. It has only been easy on rare occasions. Most of the time some effort is required on my part to call out depression’s antics and to work through an alternative that doesn’t involve unhelpful thinking.Yet in the past, time travel worked.I was able to ruminate about the past … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Just Make It Easy And Stop Facing My Depression?
Can I Tell You the Truth?
Today, I don’t feel like writing.However, I feel I need to write. This is how I am working out my relationship with depression. Through these blog posts, I am creating a balanced life for myself. So, on a day where I do not feel like writing, I also feel guilt.Why shouldn’t I just suck it up and write?After all, that is what I said I was going to do. My plan has been to … [Read more...] about Can I Tell You the Truth?
You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
Keeping depression out in the open requires constant attention.Ignoring it, or worse, assuming I am “over it,” has dire consequences. As I learn to live with depression, I am learning more and more about how it works. I am learning how secretive it wants to be, and how tempting it can be to follow its ideas.Understanding this has helped me see that depression isn’t only about … [Read more...] about You Will Never Guess the New Name I Learned For My Depression.
Why didn’t I know it’s a compass for living?
It’s easy to blame others.It’s easy for me to be defensive when someone I love questions my answer. My mind is often three to five steps ahead before the person even gets the entire sentence out of their mouth. I am time traveling and living in the future. It is a competition to get to the correct answer first.I have already mentioned many times that I am competitive. In a … [Read more...] about Why didn’t I know it’s a compass for living?
