On the first day of vacation, I was in bed and out like a light. This makes sense as I was up early and had worked until midnight. Then I had the hour-plus ride home, and some relaxing with a word game then lights out. For the past two nights, I have been going to bed later and later. This seemed like a marvelous thing to do. I was not rushing to bed as quickly as I … [Read more...] about Day Five of My Stay-cation, So Why Can’t I Sleep?
I promise to tell my new Doctor the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. Going into my doctor’s office and putting on my concealed depression face results in me not getting the true help I need. Depression is once again getting me to be secretive. It reminds me that no one understands me as well as it does, and I should be wary of anyone (or any medicine) that … [Read more...] about Will I be Ready for My New Psychiatrist?
What he told me was life changing. Getting out of bed each morning has been drama. Most days, I launch an internal dialogue with myself, which ends in my feeling guilty about staying in bed. Then at some point, a sound triggers my “fight or flight” response, and I leap out of bed. This scenario of guilt and shame for not being able to get out of bed has been going on for … [Read more...] about I Asked My Doctor 6 Questions About My MDD Symptoms
Ok, where am I going with this? Am I trying to disassociate myself from depression or am I trying to get out of bed first thing in the morning? I have been thinking, again, about why I cannot get started in the morning. Ever since November, I have struggled to begin the day. If I must get up for work, I ALWAYS do it. That’s why it’s called high-functioning … [Read more...] about Getting Out Of Bed With Depression – 22 Things I’ve Tried
Still worrying about getting out of bed in the morning, I did what most people do these days. No, I did not seek out a professional in the field and make an appointment, “that’s so last year.” I picked up my phone and Googled the answer. I found many helpful articles, but I also found this advice. Some people get depressed and have a difficult time getting out of bed … [Read more...] about Not all advice is good advice