Beginning my second year with Major Depressive Disorder, I am still not leading a balanced life. Now things are certainly much, much better than they were a year ago. I have hope and can see a way forward. Last year, I was up against the wall and saw NO way forward. It was all abyss. I was way past circling the drain. And yet I got up each day, and concealed my depression, … [Read more...] about What is Depression and Why Do I Have It?
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COVID-19 is Not the Present I Had Expected
With my first anniversary of my hospitalization for MDD, I count the mental health tools I now have as my anniversary presents. Now I am speaking about the tools I use to deal with my Major Depressive Disorder, not the tools I use to change the oil in my truck. These tools and coping skills have provided me with the hope that I am able to live a balanced life with … [Read more...] about COVID-19 is Not the Present I Had Expected
People Thought I Was Dead
That is a very sobering thought. Six weeks after getting out of the hospital, I finally contacted my mentor. He had been checking the obituaries. And while I had stayed in touch with another person for over two years, I fell off the grid last summer and stopped responding to her emails. I had the nerve, finally, to reach out today. Here’s what she wrote: I am … [Read more...] about People Thought I Was Dead
“If I Live Through This, I Want Someone to be Able to See That They Can Survive.”
The country music icon Naomi Judd told ABC News and WebMD contributor, Robin Roberts, that she began to feel what she called “completely debilitating and life-threatening depression” in 2010. Read the entire article. She says she “would come home and not leave the house for 3 weeks and not get outta my pajamas, not practice normal hygiene. It was really bad.” She wrote … [Read more...] about “If I Live Through This, I Want Someone to be Able to See That They Can Survive.”
Are these really early warning signs?
The last few weeks are catching up with me. Between working 7 days in a row, then flying to Chicago, coming back and working another 7 in a row, I am slowing down just a little bit. For example, my legs felt it when we walked the dog yesterday evening. Our property has many hills and they usually do not bother me. Last night, it felt like someone was pulling on my legs, … [Read more...] about Are these really early warning signs?