My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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Depression Will Not be My Crutch

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Depression is a disease, not a crutch. Many diseases get major attention and major funding for research. Their existence is not questioned and their status as a legitimate health condition is secure. Very few people, for example, would dispute the fact that cancer is real. People respect the havoc it can inflict on someone. Mental illness deserves the same respect. … [Read more...] about Depression Will Not be My Crutch

Why couldn’t I follow the plan?

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It was a simple plan. I empty the dishwasher, and then you fill it. The empty dogfood cans in the sink that were full of water and soaking shouldn’t have entered the equation. But when I decided to take out the recycling, suddenly it was a big deal. The act of taking out the recycling container was not the problem. It was fixating on those cans in the sink … [Read more...] about Why couldn’t I follow the plan?

In the dark, I kicked the box and out popped an automatic thought

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At 4 AM, I awoke and needed to go to the bathroom. I rolled back the covers and slid my legs off the bed. I moved the covers over my pillow so Rikki wouldn’t be tempted to move there while I was up. Rikki is our rescue beagle. She sleeps with us, mostly at the foot of the bed, but sometimes she curls up very near, or on my pillow. Fully out of the bed, I … [Read more...] about In the dark, I kicked the box and out popped an automatic thought