I went to my first CBT training meeting this evening. The group meets at On Our Own, a non-profit group that has been helping citizens deal with life issues since the 1970s. The room was packed beyond capacity, with over 24 attending. The turnout surprised the administrator. Last weeks attendance was only 12. The group is a new addition to the programs already being offered. I … [Read more...] about Who said you can’t be SMART?
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How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
For the past two hours, I have been me. Not super happy or sad, just me. How is this possible? My depression had been keeping me from myself. The Prozac must have reached a saturation point in my system. Or the hand of fate moved it to the side. Or my decision this morning to block out chunks of time for my depression, and chunks of time to work, is … [Read more...] about How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
No chunks. It’s everything, all the time.
My plan for the week is to break my thoughts into chunks. There will be a chunk for the depression. Then there is a chunk for self-care. I wish I could report that I am doing a wonderful job with the self-care piece of my recovery, but it hasn’t been as simple as I thought it would be. Getting out of my own head for a few minutes has been a challenge. … [Read more...] about No chunks. It’s everything, all the time.
Waking Up Depressed
This morning, I am having trouble getting the day started. I had trouble even making up my mind to get out of bed. It was already after 7 AM, and I am usually up and going by then. To help me decide whether to stay in bed or get up, I found myself recounting a rhyme I learned as a child. I-lit-a-match-and-it-went-out. The problem with this was, I … [Read more...] about Waking Up Depressed
Doing The Drugs
Prozac gave me a new outlook on life. I am not afraid to say it. I see the news, I know the public sentiment. Being pro-Big Pharma is not the cool thing to do. Politics and business practices aside, this drug has given me a glimpse of my former self. For that, I am thankful, grateful and glad. My doctor said it will take four to six weeks before I will see the full … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs
