It’s done, I did not take the job. But I’m still rolling the decision over and over in my head. Am I sure I thought about it in the right way? Isn’t it possible it could have been good for me? Maybe it was running towards the future, not running away from the present. I am so mad. I really wanted to get going with a job outside of the house. My home-based business is still … [Read more...] about Why am I still obsessing over this?
Archives for June 2019
I said I would not take the job. Of course, that was before the interview. That was before I spent an hour answering questions from seven board members. That was before I realized how much fun I was having. When I left the interview, it seemed like they wanted me. But you never know about these things. I had asked when they would be making their decision. I was told they would … [Read more...] about Am I running away again if I take this job?
Several people now have mentioned I should be slowing down. Is this what recovering from depression is about? Taking it easy? Making sure I have lots of self-care built into my day? Being aware of my automatic thoughts and slowing down my thinking so I do not make impulsive decisions? That seems like a lot to do. Slowing down is time consuming. Now I am not dismissing … [Read more...] about Am I Going Too Fast?
I took my time and read all 37 of my blog posts, back to day one when I came home from the hospital. What a journey already. I sound so bad, so sad, so out of it, on day one. And then I look at my recent writings and see how far I have come. This is encouraging. But it is not without setbacks. There have been days where I wondered if I would ever feel better. Days, … [Read more...] about You won’t believe where I have been
Let me tell you what I’ve learned. Up until six weeks ago, I never paid much attention to how I was taking care of myself. I didn’t understand the value of making time for me. It seemed so selfish and “about me.” It turns out that is exactly what self-care is all about. And I can tell practicing self-care really reduces my stress. Let’s look at some of the things I … [Read more...] about 10 self-care things I am doing to reduce stress