I woke up a little early and went to the bathroom. Then I went to the kitchen and got a pot of coffee started. The first person up in our household makes 12 cups, the maximum our coffee maker can produce. And the great thing about this coffee maker is that it has an insulated carafe. To me, the taste of burnt coffee that has been sitting in a glass carafe for 45 minutes is … [Read more...] about Did I take my Prozac today?
Archives for August 2019
Do you ever just want to stop?
I’ve been on the go my entire life. I fight colds and go to work. I fight aches and pains and continue to do my daily routine. I don’t stop for my birthday or even most holidays. There is always something that needs to be done. Once I was repairing the chimney on my house. I had placed the 28’ extension ladder on the deck next to the chiminea. I leaned the ladder … [Read more...] about Do you ever just want to stop?
Why did I make that decision?
Making decisions is part of life. “Do I brush my teeth this morning?” “Yes, I will.” “Will I take out the trash before going to work?” “No, I will get it tonight when I get home.” We make hundreds of these simple choices every day. Most of them are routine and require only the most cursory examination of both sides of the question before we conclude. Our brain is … [Read more...] about Why did I make that decision?
Is This Really How I am Seen?
Here are quotes I wrote down from my recent therapy session that included my key supporters. Their observations and view of me include:“Inconsistency of saying one thing and doing another”“Actions build untrust”“Doesn’t have a consistent story”“It’s hard for me to find firm ground to stand on, too trust” Whether or not I believe they are true doesn’t matter. In my … [Read more...] about Is This Really How I am Seen?
I let the dump truck go; Road Rage Part II
My mind has still not completely let go of slow drivers. Or the frustration and anger that I was feeling. I haven't fully accepted not letting other’s actions change my view of the situation. I really meant that as I was writing it yesterday. I realized that these feelings and frustrations did not have to be mine, I did not have to accept the anger and the frustration. I … [Read more...] about I let the dump truck go; Road Rage Part II