Today I am scattered. There is so much on my mind, I am having trouble slowing things down. Getting to the most important tasks is what I need to focus on. I have a list in my head, which would be easier to manage if I had written it down. But I can’t seem to stop long enough to write out the list. My drive to get these things off my plate, to keep the ball moving. … [Read more...] about Getting help keeping it in the lane
Archives for October 2019
Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
Boy do I feel silly. Two days ago, I woke up feeling cloudy. My head was not right. I was feeling unfocused and I just couldn’t get going. So, my mind jumps immediately to this must be the work of depression. Something must be going on. I must be relapsing. I am headed down the rabbit hole into the dark, dank depths of depression, into the abyss where there is no … [Read more...] about Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
What do you mean I’m blaming others?
How could he even say that? That I am blaming my depression for my actions. That I am making excuses for my actions and not being responsible. That’s not even close to what I am thinking. I am a mess today. My therapy session has opened all kinds of feelings, emotions, and who the hell knows what else. And worse, I see the next session as an extension of today. More … [Read more...] about What do you mean I’m blaming others?
I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
It’s not all or nothing. Feeling a little dull this morning doesn’t mean the end of the world s coming. In fact, just getting up has helped with the cloudiness. And then pouring a mug of black coffee and heading out to the front porch has helped, too. Maybe my cloudiness is related to the fog laying on the ground this morning. It is cool, almost cold, and the air … [Read more...] about I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
How can you be in control and have depression?
Being in control is powerful. Feeling helpless, not having control can be debilitating and unhealthy. I have been on both sides of the aisle lately. Sometimes I have felt in control and at other times have allowed myself to feel helpless, to be the victim in the situation. Linking my control issues to depression has been a real eye-opener. Sleeping habits seem to be … [Read more...] about How can you be in control and have depression?