Yes, I was being smug and self-righteous about my assumed success! The 399th blog post I titled: Two Years Later, My Depression Has Lifted. That was April 22nd of this year. I waited almost 6 weeks to write my 400th blog post. There was a feeling I had in April that I was not only in balance but cured. I no longer needed to think about depression or worry about its … [Read more...] about Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?
Archives for August 2021
Is My Life With Depression Really in Balance?
That calm, clear feeling arrived two days ago. Even having the oven stop working after I used the auto-clean feature hasn’t dulled my sense of “I’m Ok.” I am enjoying this feeling. Understanding that this will not last forever, I am soaking it in. And the sense of balance is still with me today, as I start day three. Having balance does not make me feel special. I am not … [Read more...] about Is My Life With Depression Really in Balance?
Today I Am Putting My Depression in Perspective
I just want a day off from pushing the rock up the hill. Is that too much to ask? Day after day after day I wake up and stare at the same freaky rock. Some days, I admit, that rock looks like a huge boulder and the hill look like a vertical wall of solid granite. These are my “half-dome” days, when the hill looks to me like Half Dome at Yosemite National Park in … [Read more...] about Today I Am Putting My Depression in Perspective
A Decision To Control My Attitude With 101 Coping Statements For Depression And Anxiety
Being in control is important to me. I think most people seek this in some fashion. Even the most depressed and anxious people have their limits. And I know there are lines I will not cross. Sometimes I learn where these lines are when I explode. Tamping down my responses, I am a powder keg ready to explode. I pack more and more emotions into this vessel, in my attempts … [Read more...] about A Decision To Control My Attitude With 101 Coping Statements For Depression And Anxiety
I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot
I don’t get it, why am I feeling so average, so run-of-the-mill? From a big picture perspective, things are going great. The job is exciting as I am getting to do a lot of teaching. I’m planning again, not just hoping to make it through the day. My daily to-do list is getting longer, which is something I thrive on. And even as Covid ramps up yet again, I am going to … [Read more...] about I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot