Before I began learning about how depression works, all I knew were my spectacular crashes. As I thought back on my life, I could clearly see four major episodes that my depression exacerbated. These were times when I was circling the drain, was up against the wall, and could not see any way forward. To an outsider, I can only imagine how that must have looked. But for … [Read more...] about My Depression Operates in The Smallest Spaces
Archives for December 2021
10 More Shopping Days Until Christmas And Self-Care Is Gone
It feels as if I have been going non-stop since the week of Thanksgiving. Maybe it is the time of year. Or I am just forgetting to include self-care in my day. Have I given up on self-care to accommodate everyone else’s needs? And worse than all of that, I do not see the situation changing until New Year’s Day. My dance card isn't empty until the first day of the new … [Read more...] about 10 More Shopping Days Until Christmas And Self-Care Is Gone
The 10 Things I Just Cannot Do, Part II*
*Update December 7, 2021 As I reread my list, I can see where I have made progress and where I still need to work. The reality is I will always need to work on at least one of the 10 unhelpful thinking styles. Living with depression means first acknowledging that I have it. And then quickly I say, “I have depression, depression does not have me.” And most days now, this … [Read more...] about The 10 Things I Just Cannot Do, Part II*
Once Again It’s Bye to Prozac & Hello to More Wellbutrin
I can’t believe I did not remember how Prozac made me sluggish and dull in the mornings. Two months ago, I was almost 90% successful at leading a balanced life with depression. This was a huge achievement for me. The past 2 ½ years had not all been like that. In fact, much of it was at 50%, 40%, or even 7% in terms of balance in my life. And the depression that finally … [Read more...] about Once Again It’s Bye to Prozac & Hello to More Wellbutrin