My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Change Triangle

Depression is Not My Fault, But What About Where My Decisions Lead Me?

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Daily I repeat to myself, “I have depression, depression does not have me.†And I have been fortunate to have help reinforcing that idea. From medicine management, WRAP, SMART Recovery, the Change Triangle, and more, I have tools. And I have peer support. All of this has helped me gain a clearer perspective on depression and how it has altered … [Read more...] about Depression is Not My Fault, But What About Where My Decisions Lead Me?

My Remarkable Journey to Just Be Me

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My life has been me and then me as a title. Son, husband, father, writer, manager, greeting card company developer, resume writer, career coach, business owner, fisherman. And this is just the shortlist. After being in the hospital for major depressive disorder, I noticed this idea. It is the idea that I am not good enough just as myself. I am a good manager, father, … [Read more...] about My Remarkable Journey to Just Be Me

Over the next year, what 3 improvements would you like to make in your life?

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We are already 11 days into 2021. And that nagging feeling of possible problems is still trailing behind me like Pig Pen's dust cloud in the Peanuts comic strip. Everywhere I go, I am anxious, and I cannot put my finger on it. Worse, I am lying about it to those that care about me. I AM FINE. Life is good. Things are going well. These are the stock answers I have when … [Read more...] about Over the next year, what 3 improvements would you like to make in your life?

Now’s the Time for a Doctor’s Appointment

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This time, it is for medication management. My Psychiatrist works at a teaching hospital. So, I see her each visit and often I see a new student, too. My Psychiatrist asks if I mind them being a part of my session. She always asks me in the waiting room or in the hall leading to her office. She never asks me in front of the student. I appreciate that.  I always say that … [Read more...] about Now’s the Time for a Doctor’s Appointment