My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Change Triangle

It’s a Fact There Are Only 188 More Shopping Days Until Christmas

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I’m not sure why this popped into my head, but it is a fact. Facts are what I live by. I would have made a fine reporter because I can give you the facts of any situation in which I am involved. Dates, and times, I can recount exactly what was said, what was done, and by whom. Just don’t ask me to tell you how I feel about … [Read more...] about It’s a Fact There Are Only 188 More Shopping Days Until Christmas

Memorial Day Holiday Is Over, Now What?

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I am worried that I don’t feel different today. It seems like I should be more relaxed and content. I got to spend a long weekend with my son and my new daughter-in-law. They drove over 6 hours to be here for the Memorial Day holiday. And we hosted a bonfire on Saturday with several family members from the surrounding area joining us. We grilled, made … [Read more...] about Memorial Day Holiday Is Over, Now What?

With Depression, I Can Do What I Want, Can’t I?

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Having control over my attitude towards events is all I can do. But that one thing is extremely powerful. It sent men to the moon after the Soviet Union put Sputnik into space. The US program was still launching high-altitude weather balloons. After Sputnik, the attitude of the country was “we have to do something.†And Kennedy making that … [Read more...] about With Depression, I Can Do What I Want, Can’t I?

What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?

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I must tell you I am very unsettled about this. On the one hand, I have collected and am using a wealth of knowledge about depression. My personal experience includes high-functioning depression, concealed depression, and Major Depressive Disorder. Recently, it was pointed out by my psychiatrist that Anxiety has been present. My life with depression spans 50 years., and … [Read more...] about What Should I Do with All I Have Learned About Depression?

OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!

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The first email I can find about the project was from the middle of March. (Please read to the end. Sometimes I need to warm up to the depression part) That was 5 months ago. Then, it seemed like only a matter of weeks and the garage construction would be underway. With three estimates in hand and conversations with all three contractors, we had made our choice. March … [Read more...] about OK, I’m Ready To Get Started!