My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

My life goes on

I Thought the Next Pandemic Would Include Zombies

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And yet here we are facing a deadly variation of the flu. My level of anxiety has increased markedly as the virus has spread. This anxiety has manifested itself as anger, at times, and has been a source of friction within my support group. I wonder why this time it's different, having survived swine flu, H1 N1, and yearly cold and flu seasons. Having a day job in the … [Read more...] about I Thought the Next Pandemic Would Include Zombies

The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II

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The inevitable happened today. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. He was over 15 years old and had lived a charmed life for a cat. Although he never had offspring, he had a family that he loved and that loved him. He was a hunter, a birdwatcher, and he loved to show his dominance in the pack. His name was Pumpkin after his “pumpkin … [Read more...] about The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II

I think I should. I think I shouldn’t.

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What is it about making a decision? I have done my homework. I have filled out the worksheets. I have spoken to my supporters, my therapist and my family. And I am still not sure what I should do. And I haven’t even been offered the job yet. Just because the interview went well, doesn’t mean I will be offered the position. Yet here I am … [Read more...] about I think I should. I think I shouldn’t.