We flew from Dulles Airport near Washington, DC (USA) on Sunday morning. It was a brisk 16 degrees Fahrenheit. It is now Thursday, and the air temperature just outside of Panama City, near the canal, is already 82 degrees. We are picking up my son tonight and have booked a 6-hour boat tour that includes traveling through the locks. I cannot wait! Today, we are starting … [Read more...] about I Went to See the Panama Canal—and Avoided My Feelings Instead
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What High-Functioning (Concealed) Depression Really Looks Like
If you saw me back then, you’d never guess I was struggling. Or so I thought, anyway, that was my plan.I got up every morning, went to work, paid my bills, smiled at people, and said, “I’m fine.” I showed up for everyone else, even when I couldn’t show up for myself.But inside, I felt like I was not feeling at all. Often on the inside, I felt up against the wall, with no way … [Read more...] about What High-Functioning (Concealed) Depression Really Looks Like
10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
For years, I told myself I was “fine, “I just needed to stay busy. I smile, joke, and always keep busy. I carry papers at work, so people think I am on a mission. But deep down, I could tell I wasn’t right. I didn’t call it depression. I just thought I was tired. Or lazy. Or too soft. For years, I would make excuses to go to bed early. This safety net was my chance to let … [Read more...] about 10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
What does it mean to be “perfectly” depressed? The phrase itself feels like a contradiction. Depression, after all, is often portrayed as something visible—tears, disheveled hair, darkened rooms, canceled plans. But what if it could be hidden in plain sight? Behind a polished exterior, behind excellence and achievement, behind the kind of life that others envy? This is the … [Read more...] about Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
Hurry Up And Wait
I don’t understand why things seem so hard right now. Once again, I am so close to the finish line, but I cannot get past it. I can see the end from here. I knowwhat it would feel like, how it would smell. Heck, I even know what it would taste like. But I am stuckhere, twiddling my thumbs, as I wait for something to happen. Having been in a holding pattern for a while, … [Read more...] about Hurry Up And Wait
