I just left my weekly therapy appointment.As I went in, I wondered how long I have just felt OK. And how long have I been thinking about this? This must have been going on for years. And I may have made up a reason for this happening. If I did not have one, my depression would have stepped in and added its own color commentary.I first heard someone say, " It must be the … [Read more...] about STILL OK, NOT SAD, NOT MAD, JUST OK
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What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
Photo by Marten Bjork on UnsplashChoosing not to live with depression is, for me, choosing suicide.Because of my family history, I see that I either learn to face depression and live with it, or check out. And my one instance of contemplating checking out occurred almost 50 years ago. Since then, I have understood that I am more afraid of death than I am of living with … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Choose to Live with Depression?
There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
Unsplash I am amazed at the changes the last month has brought.A month ago, I had just returned from trekking in the Grand Canyon. Things were better than OK, the family was great, and I had just booked a flight up north for Thanksgiving. Work was good, and I was getting to use the wood stove some mornings to take the chill out of the living room.And then stuff hit the … [Read more...] about There’s a Lot Going On, So Is Being OK, OK?
Talk Therapy And I Have A Rocky Relationship
UnsplashI think of my attempts at talk therapy as if I was dating someone for the first time. There is that honeymoon period where you are getting to know each other. And this part is different from therapy, for with dating, I am allowed to choose from anyone, not just people on a list.However, I suppose a list of therapists that have openings is similar to a dating app.I … [Read more...] about Talk Therapy And I Have A Rocky Relationship
Can I Really Beat My Depression?
Photo by kevin Baquerizo on Unsplash My personal history aside, I feel my gut saying the outcome is at best 50-50.There have been times in my life where depression has been the driving force. And yet there have been years where depression was missing. And I spent most of my life denying that my having depression was even a possibility. I knew there were times where things were … [Read more...] about Can I Really Beat My Depression?
