If you saw me back then, you’d never guess I was struggling. Or so I thought, anyway, that was my plan.I got up every morning, went to work, paid my bills, smiled at people, and said, “I’m fine.” I showed up for everyone else, even when I couldn’t show up for myself.But inside, I felt like I was not feeling at all. Often on the inside, I felt up against the wall, with no way … [Read more...] about What High-Functioning (Concealed) Depression Really Looks Like
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10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
For years, I told myself I was “fine, “I just needed to stay busy. I smile, joke, and always keep busy. I carry papers at work, so people think I am on a mission. But deep down, I could tell I wasn’t right. I didn’t call it depression. I just thought I was tired. Or lazy. Or too soft. For years, I would make excuses to go to bed early. This safety net was my chance to let … [Read more...] about 10 Warning Signs You’re Secretly Struggling With Depression
Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
What does it mean to be “perfectly” depressed? The phrase itself feels like a contradiction. Depression, after all, is often portrayed as something visible—tears, disheveled hair, darkened rooms, canceled plans. But what if it could be hidden in plain sight? Behind a polished exterior, behind excellence and achievement, behind the kind of life that others envy? This is the … [Read more...] about Why I Am Unpacking the Rules Behind My Perfectly Concealed Depression
Hurry Up And Wait
I don’t understand why things seem so hard right now. Once again, I am so close to the finish line, but I cannot get past it. I can see the end from here. I knowwhat it would feel like, how it would smell. Heck, I even know what it would taste like. But I am stuckhere, twiddling my thumbs, as I wait for something to happen. Having been in a holding pattern for a while, … [Read more...] about Hurry Up And Wait
STILL OK, NOT SAD, NOT MAD, JUST OK
I just left my weekly therapy appointment. As I went in, I wondered how long I have just felt OK. And how long have I been thinking about this? This must have been going on for years. And I may have made up a reason for this happening. If I did not have one, my depression would have stepped in and added its own color commentary. I first heard someone say, " It must be the … [Read more...] about STILL OK, NOT SAD, NOT MAD, JUST OK
