Photo by abigail low on Unsplash In my mind, my depression was off for the summer. It had flown south, and was on a beach somewhere in the tropics, sipping a rum and coke and contemplating the waves. Spending time with me was going to wait until cooler weather set in. Until then, my depression and I had parted company. I was finally free to be depression free. Or so I … [Read more...] about I Was Fooling Myself and I Didn’t Know (Didn’t Care)
On Our Own, C'Ville
Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Photo by David Vives on Unsplash I’m still stuck on being alone for the summer, with my depression on vacation. After being so determined to get my depression out in the open, why am I sad that it has taken a holiday? I should be doing back flips and alerting the media. Depression’s absence should be a celebration. I have been working on this for 5 years. And yet, I … [Read more...] about Summers Here, So Where Is My Depression?
Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
Photo by Florian Klauer on Unsplash Depression has been with me my entire life. I am drafting the story of my life facing depression head on; after only 62 years of ignoring it, of never calling it by name, hiding it from everyone including myself, and sweeping the crumbs of every episode under the rug each time it was over, as I walked away never looking … [Read more...] about Why Depression Is My Lifelong Companion
How to Push Rock Up Hill
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash How to Push Rock Up Hill, it’s not a good thing when the best reference you can find is on Wikipedia. From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia For other uses, see Sisyphus (disambiguation). Not to be confused with Syphilis. Persephone supervising Sisyphus in the Underworld, … [Read more...] about How to Push Rock Up Hill
Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?