My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Self Care

Depression Cannot Keep Me from Being Thankful

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I am thankful for: The fact that I am still alive after a lifetime ( over 60 years) living with high-functioning depressionMy family as they continue to support me, love me, and enjoy my companyMy ability to make choices for I can always choose my attitude towards eventsMy dog, for the unconditional love she sharesThe four seasons, each reminding me of the … [Read more...] about Depression Cannot Keep Me from Being Thankful

10 More Shopping Days Until Christmas And Self-Care Is Gone

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It feels as if I have been going non-stop since the week of Thanksgiving. Maybe it is the time of year. Or I am just forgetting to include self-care in my day. Have I given up on self-care to accommodate everyone else’s needs? And worse than all of that, I do not see the situation changing until New Year’s Day. My dance card isn't … [Read more...] about 10 More Shopping Days Until Christmas And Self-Care Is Gone

My Self-Care Helps Me and May Encourage Others

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Self-care means different things to different people. Soaking in a bubble bath with candles all around the tub, while classical music plays softly in the background used to come to mind when I heard self-care. That thought used to make me cringe. Now I see the term as a catch-all for activities that I choose, which give me joy and relief from anything bothering me. How … [Read more...] about My Self-Care Helps Me and May Encourage Others

Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again

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I want to decide, but I feel frozen instead. There are things I can do right now that would address getting out of bed in the morning. But somehow, all I can muster is my “being OK†act. My high-functioning depression kicks in when I must get out of bed. This morning is a perfect example. I had gone to bed just before 10 PM. Eight hours … [Read more...] about Depression Has Left Me a “Deer in Headlights” Again