My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Self Care

For 1062 Days, I Have Posted Thoughts About My Depression Every 2.196 Days

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I don’t say this to brag. In some respects, I wish I had never started writing this blog. It all started the day after I checked out of 5 East. I had made the decision in the previous 4 days that I was going to face my depression head-on. This meant I would never again run from it. Even more important, I was not going to sweep it under the rug and pretend that it never … [Read more...] about For 1062 Days, I Have Posted Thoughts About My Depression Every 2.196 Days

What Makes You Think I Would Choose Concealed Depression?

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Stigma is the first thing that comes to mind. Second, I am always surprised when I learn someone else has the same concerns about sharing their concealed whatever. And seeing Jill's admission that she sometimes opened up to a boss leads me to believe she is one of the bravest people I have ever read about. I am not at all comfortable about sharing my high-functioning … [Read more...] about What Makes You Think I Would Choose Concealed Depression?

Why Do I Think I Need a Day Off?

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But if I do not act on that idea, then so what? I have felt like I needed some time off since early December. In fact, staying relaxed, and in the moment has gotten harder and harder to achieve. I can see very few moments where I have accomplished this. Recently, I spoke with a couple about my grandson and their grandson. We spent almost 3 minutes comparing notes as … [Read more...] about Why Do I Think I Need a Day Off?

I’m Too Busy to Be So Busy – Self-care Part II

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What in the world? I know I’m not sure I know what is going on either. But what I do know is I haven’t had a chance to slow down since early December. It’s been over 7 weeks since I felt like I had a few minutes I could take for myself. Getting on a plane and flying to see my grandson was about me and my family. But it … [Read more...] about I’m Too Busy to Be So Busy – Self-care Part II

Is There Just Too Much Going On?

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Last night one of my employees said I looked stressed. I certainly wasn't trying to project feeling that way. However, the look on my face must have given away what I have been trying to hide. Like my concealed depression, I have not shared my feelings at work. Well, almost never. And I was less than excited about the one or two times I attempted it. Sharing at work not … [Read more...] about Is There Just Too Much Going On?