I have been writing about this for weeks. Getting going in the morning is hard. And I want to take action by calling my doctor. But, I have exhausted all of the reasons why and the reasons why not to make the call. There have been moments of clarity and then I am dashed against the wall. My ability to move this thought into action is non-existent. Getting going in … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Make The Call?
Self Care
The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II
The inevitable happened today. Ashes to ashes, dust to dust. He was over 15 years old and had lived a charmed life for a cat. Although he never had offspring, he had a family that he loved and that loved him. He was a hunter, a birdwatcher, and he loved to show his dominance in the pack. His name was Pumpkin after his “pumpkin … [Read more...] about The Circle of Life Sucks – Digging an Animal Grave Part II
Can I just be myself today?
Is that so hard? I am still having the waking up issue. It seems I have walked all around the edges of this. But I have not faced it or asked the right questions. I still wonder, is this related to my change in medication? Having the courage, conviction, self-advocacy determination to get the answer isn’t enough. Depression has got me doing the deer … [Read more...] about Can I just be myself today?
I Don’t Often See It, but I Always Have a Choice
It hit me today while I was attending a group meeting. Very often the meetings are started with check-in. Each participant in the group has a chance to say how they are feeling or talk for a minute about something that is going on in their lives. Participation is not mandatory, and anyone can pass if they do not want to speak. Â Lately, I've noticed, every … [Read more...] about I Don’t Often See It, but I Always Have a Choice
I’m Feeling Rushed Today
And it’s my day off from my day job, a self-care day. Yet I once again did not get up early. I used the excuse that I got in just before midnight and didn’t get to bed until almost 1 AM. But I’ve used that excuse before, saying I need to make sure I get enough sleep. Now that I write this, I see that I have flipped … [Read more...] about I’m Feeling Rushed Today
