It was totally unexpected. I guess I had secretly hoped it would happen but was very guarded in my expectations. It has been five days since my Psychiatrist increased my Prozac from 20 mg to 40 mg daily. My instructions are to let him know in 3 weeks how I am feeling, sooner if there are noticeable side effects. Well, this morning I noticed a welcome side … [Read more...] about I bumped into my old self this morning
Some days I feel like myself
This is true for me
I'm off to work. I will write later. I feel that if I slow down or stay in one place too long, depression will find me. So I keep moving. And I know it is harder to hit a moving target. This is another incentive to stay on my toes. The concept applies to my eating habits, too. I eat very, very fast. … [Read more...] about This is true for me
When will the fun start?
I know I should be happy to be alive. Just getting out of bed each morning is an accomplishment. When you think about how life manifests itself, most life just is. Look at lichens and moss. They have hung around for billions of years in pretty much the same state as we see them today. Now if you try to clean moss off something, it is hard as hell to do. And most times, … [Read more...] about When will the fun start?
Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
Boy do I feel silly. Two days ago, I woke up feeling cloudy. My head was not right. I was feeling unfocused and I just couldn’t get going. So, my mind jumps immediately to this must be the work of depression. Something must be going on. I must be relapsing. I am headed down the rabbit hole into the dark, dank depths of depression, into the abyss … [Read more...] about Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
I Didn’t Time Travel This Past Weekend
I never gave much importance to living in the moment. My life has been much more about time travel. My comfort zone is the future. The planning and anticipating of future events have been my go-to place. There everything is perfect. Or sometimes not, if I am catastrophizing about some future event that may or may not happen. Even worrying about the future was a more … [Read more...] about I Didn’t Time Travel This Past Weekend
