My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

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Who is running this show?

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My new life with depression is all about progress, not perfection. Knowing where depression is and what it is up to is very important to me. Keeping it out in the open is my main strategy. Not letting it have me keep secrets is a big thing. Historically, depression has put something in my mind, and then swore me to secrecy. Not fact-checking what depression was telling … [Read more...] about Who is running this show?

There are still doors my keys do not open

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The problem is not all or nothing. Although it feels like that when I am stuck, immobile and indecisive. Once the day gets going, I am better equipped to use the tools I have learned to meet and defeat problems as they come my way. Between SMART Recovery, WRAP training, Peer Support at On Our Own, meetings with my therapist and psychiatrist, I have learned so much about … [Read more...] about There are still doors my keys do not open

If I Am Not in Control, Am I Out of Control?

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Two things are on my mind this morning. My ability to get out of bed in the morning and a mysterious charge to my checking account. Sometime after I went to bed last night, I was charged $200 for a “Promo-Kit.†The time was 11:20 PM and I was in bed, asleep. I discovered it this morning as I reviewed my account. I guess I still have some … [Read more...] about If I Am Not in Control, Am I Out of Control?

I still have time for Valentine’s Day

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Procrastination could just be a guy thing, not a sign of depression. Whatever the cause, I am going to be one of those last-minute husbands today, rushing around to select just the right card from the picked over selection left after the early birds claimed their worms (cards). And then it’s a visit to the chocolate shop, to pick the right treats. Oh, … [Read more...] about I still have time for Valentine’s Day