Depression can be sneaky. It has infested itself in my being and has taken up residence in my body as if it belongs there. I am angry this morning. And as I think about why I am angry; I am recognizing things that are happening that I must learn to think differently about. Living with depression is a full-time, 24/7 job. Keeping it from being in charge is what I am … [Read more...] about 11 Things Depression has done, and it’s only Wednesday
What depression has cost me
Am I asking the right question?
It is easy to live in the future. No one to bother you, everything is exactly as you imagine it and the grass is greener on your side of the fence. But I am finding out that living in the future has its costs. It is not free. And the price I am paying may not be worth the perks I am getting. I am still a huge believer in my own abilities. There have been many … [Read more...] about Am I asking the right question?
101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
As I make progress and hash out some of the underlying issues that have caused my depression to intensify at different times in my life, I am beginning to see the value of visualizing my new future. I asked for professional medical attention 5 months ago because I have lost my focus. I could NOT see any way forward. I was up against the wall and could not see the … [Read more...] about 101 ideal activities for my new life with depression
I cannot get it back
I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for the decisions I made along the way. But I was the one who took the action or failed … [Read more...] about I cannot get it back
I want to say thank you for yesterday.
Focusing on the one thing I could control, I decided to look at my attitude towards the weekend. On Friday, I had decided to understand how I needed to think if I was going to relax and enjoy the day. It was clear that I normally would be stressed out about not doing things I was thinking about because family was visiting. Having company requires a change in attitude. … [Read more...] about I want to say thank you for yesterday.
