My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

What depression has cost me

Up Against the Wall – 10 Unhelpful Thinking Styles

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I’ve been thinking about unhelpful thinking styles. And I really should, because that is what put me up against the wall. It was all or nothing, no shades of grey anywhere on the horizon. No visible way forward. That thinking landed me in the emergency room. Solutions that I thought up I magnified, blowing them out of proportion. Either way, I underestimated the good … [Read more...] about Up Against the Wall – 10 Unhelpful Thinking Styles

Doing The Drugs

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Prozac gave me a new outlook on life. I am not afraid to say it. I see the news, I know the public sentiment. Being pro-Big Pharma is not the cool thing to do. Politics and business practices aside, this drug has given me a glimpse of my former self. For that, I am thankful, grateful and glad. My doctor said it will take four to six weeks before I will see the full … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs

My First Day

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Getting past the first day is a positive step. I am grateful for all the support I have received. While I am still afraid of what lies ahead, I am going to do the things I said I would do today. This includes finding a psychiatrist for medication and an LCSW to talk with. This morning, I am feeling less chatty, but know that the act of writing, of journaling, is helpful. … [Read more...] about My First Day