It is Sunday morning, and time for self-care. The sky is overcast, and the air is damp. It is almost chilly this morning. This is a far cry from the past month, where daily temperatures have been in the 90’s and the heat index has topped 100 degrees. Drought conditions where beginning to show themselves. Everything was turning brown and … [Read more...] about Now I Can Practise Self-care Without Feeling Guilty
What depression has cost me
What You See May Not Be What You Get
I see eyes and a mouth ready to eat me if I get too close. That’s what I see as I sit in my therapist’s office waiting for my appointment. Maybe I watched too many cartoons as a child. I see the raised couch cushion forming an upper lip, while the frame underneath becomes the bottom of the mouth. And the tops of the sofa arms, become … [Read more...] about What You See May Not Be What You Get
Many Things Are Going Well, So Why Do I Feel Lackluster and Dull?
Why do I feel lifeless when so many things are good? What is causing this enormous hole in my day-to-day feelings? The list for today was made yesterday. Many things on the list were crossed off as completed before lunchtime. So what? I just want to feel better. Feeling better is all I want. Not great, spectacular, or even above average. Simply better than I do. Faking … [Read more...] about Many Things Are Going Well, So Why Do I Feel Lackluster and Dull?
Why Do I Have These Thoughts?
Thankfully, I am not talking about suicide. During my last Psychiatrist visit, my Doctor asked me when the last time was, I had thoughts of suicide. I had to think, before answering. My doctor pointed out that this was an incredibly positive sign. Her patients who know exactly when they had their last suicidal thought are more at risk. But not having those kinds of … [Read more...] about Why Do I Have These Thoughts?
A Time to Sow, A Time to Reap – My Unhelpful Thinking Exposed
After 15 months of sowing, I am beyond doubt getting to reap some benefits. Depression is no longer the unknown figure lurking in the wings, trying to lure me with candy and peanuts. There are many tools I use daily to understand the sneaky, devious ways depression exploits situations to entice me to follow its ideas. Just yesterday, depression was attempting to insist I … [Read more...] about A Time to Sow, A Time to Reap – My Unhelpful Thinking Exposed
