My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

WRAP (Wellness Recovery Action Plan)

Three things I do to not be S.A.D. when I fall back

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The days are getting shorter, that is clear. The shortest day of the year will be here in less than two months. Darkness comes in the mid-Atlantic states by 6 PM now, and the days are still getting shorter. In early summer, it wasn’t getting dark until almost 9 PM. What a difference. Seasonal Affective Disorder appears as the days get shorter and can … [Read more...] about Three things I do to not be S.A.D. when I fall back

I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?

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It’s not all or nothing. Feeling a little dull this morning doesn’t mean the end of the world s coming. In fact, just getting up has helped with the cloudiness. And then pouring a mug of black coffee and heading out to the front porch has helped, too. Maybe my cloudiness is related to the fog laying on the ground this morning. … [Read more...] about I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?

How can you be in control and have depression?

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Being in control is powerful. Feeling helpless, not having control can be debilitating and unhealthy. I have been on both sides of the aisle lately. Sometimes I have felt in control and at other times have allowed myself to feel helpless, to be the victim in the situation. Linking my control issues to depression has been a real eye-opener. Sleeping habits seem to be … [Read more...] about How can you be in control and have depression?

Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?

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I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3 or 4 days after getting out of the hospital. I wish I could sleep. But … [Read more...] about Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?