Right now, I have moving my desk on my list with a lower priority than scheduling my colonoscopy. But the truth is, each time I move my desk, I get a renewed sense of purpose. The actions of cleaning, organizing, and then actually moving the desk gives me a "fresh start." And happily, I have learned many other ways to help with my attitude and fresh starts. One of the … [Read more...] about New attitude, new focus, new desk location?
automatic thoughts
Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
On my calendar, the appointment was for 8:30 AM today. My appointments have been every two weeks since the summer. I even scribbled it on the card from the last appointment the new date before leaving his office two weeks ago. So why is someone else in with my therapist, and I am waiting another couple of weeks to see him? I didn’t do anything wrong. I wrote down the … [Read more...] about Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
While I have never been an NFL Quarterback, I am a smart, intelligent person who has accomplished many things in my lifetime. Yet I am also the person who has major depressive disorder and spent 43+ years doing everything in my power NOT to face it, NOT to acknowledge that I had it, NOT to deal with it. My hospital stay has changed all of that. Now my mantra is: “I … [Read more...] about Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
Can you see the obvious?
Who would think you would need spell check for a four-word truck sign? On my way to work yesterday, I ended up behind a tandem dump truck. No big deal, except I would rather be behind a vehicle I can see over, around or through. This helps me feel more confident as I drive. But in heavy traffic, I can make it work. As we got to a traffic light, I really looked at … [Read more...] about Can you see the obvious?
In the dark, I kicked the box and out popped an automatic thought
At 4 AM, I awoke and needed to go to the bathroom. I rolled back the covers and slid my legs off the bed. I moved the covers over my pillow so Rikki wouldn’t be tempted to move there while I was up. Rikki is our rescue beagle. She sleeps with us, mostly at the foot of the bed, but sometimes she curls up very near, or on my pillow. Fully out of the bed, I turned in the darkness … [Read more...] about In the dark, I kicked the box and out popped an automatic thought