Photo by USGS on Unsplash Excuse me for saying this. More than once, despite my depression, I have been on the edge of greatness. I have even stepped into the winner's circle a few times in my life. There is the warmth of that glow and the admiration of the crowd that can get a person almost giddy. And the positive endorphins go wild. Taking the gold is what I am always … [Read more...] about Is Depression Getting Me Close While Keeping Me Far Away?
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I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
Photo by Yu Wang on Unsplash I say that, but I cannot convince myself that I mean it. I could list 100’s of positive assertions, including: Heck, I have even made up one: “I have depression, depression does not have me.” But repeating these mantras day after day, situation after situation goes only so far. In the end, there must be movement, action of some sort. … [Read more...] about I’m More Than a Plucky Saying on Pinterest ™
I am Just Not Good Enough
Photo by Nik on Unsplash Yesterday I read an article whose theme was “I am just not good enough.” This piqued my curiosity, as I have been wondering if I am just not good enough for a while. The core of the article centered around the definition of perfectionism. It turns out that, according to the author, perfectionism isn’t about setting high, often impossible … [Read more...] about I am Just Not Good Enough
Even My Depression Tells Me I Should Be Paying Attention
Photo by Sara Kurfeß on Unsplash Who knew staying focused would be so difficult. It is Sunday morning, shortly after 8 AM. I just spent close to 45 minutes scrolling through the internet on my phone. Up before 8AM, I had planned to do some writing before everyone else got up for the day. That didn’t work out the way I thought it would. And I seem to get suckered … [Read more...] about Even My Depression Tells Me I Should Be Paying Attention
Here We Go Again, Is My Depression Ready?
Photo by Amer Mughawish on Unsplash Lately, it seems like I am either gearing up for my depression to take over or I am coming down from my depression. I am all in or shrinking away. It seems like I am giving in to my depression, and yet I am going forward. Then I am catching myself in an unhelpful thinking style, just as I am trying to be better than my … [Read more...] about Here We Go Again, Is My Depression Ready?