I went to bed after midnight and thought I was having therapy this morning. I woke up at 6 am and got up at 6:40 am. After going to the bathroom and making my bed, I went into the kitchen to make coffee. Then I took my phone and began to review last night’s emails and text messages. That’s when I realized that this is only Tuesday, and my Zoom therapy session is on … [Read more...] about I Thought Therapy Was Today: A Lesson in Anger, Loneliness, and Emotional Growth
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The Beetle by the Pool and What Panama Is Teaching Me About Retirement
I am looking at a huge beetle climbing up beside the swimming pool. It moved slowly along the edge of the shadow and then turned and went down the step. I lost it when it moved so that my view of it was blocked by a hammock. Now it went up again. And when I looked up from typing, it was down again. It must be looking for food, not escape. One last thing about the … [Read more...] about The Beetle by the Pool and What Panama Is Teaching Me About Retirement
I Wrote About Panama to Avoid Writing About Me
Photo by Manuel González Asturias, SJ on Unsplash We are at Boquete in Panama, and there is no hot water. I just put a pot of coffee on, and I am not ready to face the hot water problem. My brother has emailed the Airbnb owner and is waiting for a response. My daughter stated that she had the same issue last night. She was able to stand the water for general washing, but … [Read more...] about I Wrote About Panama to Avoid Writing About Me
Why I Still Need Therapy at 70—and What Happens When I Miss It
Since I began with my new therapist over a year ago, I have missed several weeks of therapy. The first week it happened was because of a family vacation. I must admit that I was worked up about it, but the anxiety was unfounded. The week went smoothly, and I didn’t circle the drain on the way to the abyss. In fact, it was a non-event. Now I am out of the country for … [Read more...] about Why I Still Need Therapy at 70—and What Happens When I Miss It
Ten Minutes With My Money Is Better Than Seven Days of Avoiding It
I have been there and have ignored the obvious. I’m not saying that I have buried my head in the sand, but the idea is very familiar. I can remember thinking to myself, “If I check my balance, I will spiral out of control.” Or worse, I remember thinking not knowing made me feel better than knowing.” But next week, the problems were still there. And because I ignored … [Read more...] about Ten Minutes With My Money Is Better Than Seven Days of Avoiding It
