Photo by Martin Sanchez on Unsplash It had always seemed just a matter of time. Even with all the precautions, vaccines, boosters, masks, deep cleaning, and social distancing, the odds were still against me. Add to that my occupation, which puts me in proximity to over 2,700 people each day. If you add employees, the number is closer to 3,000 contacts in a 9-hour … [Read more...] about How Did Covid-19 Finally Catch Me?
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I Discovered My Life with Depression is Not a Lie
Image by Clker-Free-Vector-Images from Pixabay It’s funny the stories we tell ourselves. “Fake it until you make it” has always been my motto. And I have always felt that there is more for me to do before I can say I have made it. As the head psychiatrist on 5 East asked me, “when is enough, enough?” Getting one more certification, one more set of initials after my name, … [Read more...] about I Discovered My Life with Depression is Not a Lie
Am I Afraid of Talk Therapy to Beat My Depression?
Photo by Finn on Unsplash I mean it makes sense that it would help. Yet I have made excuses to stop going even after I had fought to get one therapist into my insurance network. I was paying out of pocket and had already called my health insurance provider once about getting him to be in-network. I finally got the nerve to call again after I had spent $115 for each of … [Read more...] about Am I Afraid of Talk Therapy to Beat My Depression?
Why Won’t Depression Let Professional Help In?
Photo by Nico Smit on Unsplash My depression has exclusivity in my life. Try as I might to invite others in to share my life, in the end, I find ways to stay distant. Even when I initiate the friendship or professional relationship, in the end, I find ways to stay distant from them. And even when I stay involved, my depression is still working to keep me separate from … [Read more...] about Why Won’t Depression Let Professional Help In?
Now Back at The Gym, I Used Covid Instead of Depression for Why I Left
Depression told me it was an innocent slip, but I’m sure it was Freudian. I was sitting in the small office of my gym, re-registering. We were talking about getting back and without being asked, I volunteered that I had stopped because of Covid. This was true in a way, but it was not the real reason I stopped going. I stopped going to the gym because I had been in 5 East … [Read more...] about Now Back at The Gym, I Used Covid Instead of Depression for Why I Left