Growing up, I was the kid excited about the upcoming holidays. It wasn’t always the presents, though that was certainly a factor. After all, I was a child. I remember the Sears Christmas catalog coming in the mail. I would dog-ear pages and make sure Santa knew that I was good, so the odds of me getting something for Christmas favored me. Often, it was … [Read more...] about My love/hate relationship with holidays
depression and anxiety
I bumped into my old self this morning
It was totally unexpected. I guess I had secretly hoped it would happen but was very guarded in my expectations. It has been five days since my Psychiatrist increased my Prozac from 20 mg to 40 mg daily. My instructions are to let him know in 3 weeks how I am feeling, sooner if there are noticeable side effects. Well, this morning I noticed a welcome side … [Read more...] about I bumped into my old self this morning
I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Well, maybe I just did not tell him everything. That sounds a lot better. Yet, in the end, I wasn’t honest about how I was doing. My years of practice hiding and concealing my depression kicked in when I went in to see him last week. It had been three months since I first saw him, and I made a lot of progress. With all the work I have done to … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
There are so many more things I could be doing right now. How can I decide? That is what I am working on currently. It should make me happy, glad, excited to be wanted by others. To have people I admire say “you could be a big help and contributor to the success of our non-profit, our company, our group." This is very flattering. But at the … [Read more...] about What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
A Little Slack in the Chain
It’s not a lot to ask for, just a little space. Yes, I still want to be a part of your life. And yes, I care about you. But I need my space, too. It sounds selfish when I say it out loud. Even thinking I must sometimes say no is not in my DNA. I have been programmed from an early age to say yes. If you ask me to jump, often it is not just yes, but … [Read more...] about A Little Slack in the Chain
