My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

mental health

What Will Vacation Feel Like As I Change Medication?

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I’m completely off my feed. And I have been since Sunday. It is hard to stay focused on anything other than my almost 16-month-old grandson. The trip up from Virginia included an overnight stop in New Jersey. This was a chance to visit with my son and daughter-in-law. They were warm and very hospitable. Then it was pork roll and egg for breakfast as I … [Read more...] about What Will Vacation Feel Like As I Change Medication?

Has Depression made Me an Overachiever?

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Is depression spurring on my overachieving, or would I be an overachiever without depression? That’s what I am grappling with today. Understanding where this need to do is coming from, I am looking at all possibilities. I cannot remember a time where I didn’t feel the need to be productive. As far back as I can remember, I have always … [Read more...] about Has Depression made Me an Overachiever?

My Family Vacation Was About Having Fun Without Depression

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The last four days have been marvelous. I couldn’t have written a better script for our time together. There was plenty of group times, especially at meals. Several of us took turns cooking. And those that didn’t cook, cleaned up. There were three generations in the house. Brother, sister, brother-in-law, wife, daughter, sons, … [Read more...] about My Family Vacation Was About Having Fun Without Depression

Getting Back to Therapy Wasn’t What I Expected

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For some reason, I envisioned a breakthrough session last night. By the end of the zoom meeting, I thought all my cares would be lifted and I would have found a nugget of truth I could work with until the next session. My anticipation of our first meeting under the new framework was hard to contain. After all, we had done some great work together. It was February 5th when … [Read more...] about Getting Back to Therapy Wasn’t What I Expected