My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

mental health

Afraid or not, life still marches forward

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We are either moving forward or we are dead. There is no middle ground. Even when we feel nothing is happening, that what we are doing doesn’t matter, life is going on. My personal thoughts about my self-worth and my value, my contributions to society and the greater good, are done against this backdrop. Whether I decide I am valuable just as I am, … [Read more...] about Afraid or not, life still marches forward

Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?

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I read a few of my early blog posts this morning. Some of them I wrote just days after getting out of the hospital. There is a lot of uncertainty in these early posts. I am feeling my way towards something, but I wasn’t sure what it was. Check out this post I wrote 3 or 4 days after getting out of the hospital. I wish I could sleep. But … [Read more...] about Flashback Friday – Was I really like this?

Celebrating the little victories brings balance into my life

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I clicked on a link and there it was. "We are a spectacular compilation of little victories that exist in the face of odds, not in our favor." Kate Speer “The Positively Kate Depression-Busting Routine.†Read The entire article.  Reading this was exactly what I needed this morning. Kate’s routine begins by … [Read more...] about Celebrating the little victories brings balance into my life

No Sleep For You: I Tossed and Turned All Night

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My sleep patterns have been much better. Maybe it’s my work schedule. Maybe I am tired when I go to bed. Or it could be that depression is not as active. Whatever the reason, my sleep has been much better in the past month or so. Most nights I only wake once, versus my old pattern of waking every hour. This has been a blessing. I am not tired … [Read more...] about No Sleep For You: I Tossed and Turned All Night