My Concealed Depression

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What lens am I looking at myself through?

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I’m gauging my own self-worth, my own self-esteem. I am trying to answer the question that has been burning inside me for over forty years. Am I enough? It turns out that the question isn’t even a straightforward question. It’s conditional, with a lot of but’s and what-ifs? It turns out you must decide what lens you are looking through before you even begin to consider the … [Read more...] about What lens am I looking at myself through?

I stopped playing music when I’m driving

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Silence was my only friend while driving. It wasn’t always like that. I remember buying a power booster for a Dodge Ram Charger I owned. I mounted two speakers in frames on either side of the back seat. I had an 8-track and a stereo cassette player mounted under the dash. I loved to roll the windows down and sing as I drove. So how have I ended up driving … [Read more...] about I stopped playing music when I’m driving

Am I running away again if I take this job?

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I said I would not take the job. Of course, that was before the interview. That was before I spent an hour answering questions from seven board members. That was before I realized how much fun I was having. When I left the interview, it seemed like they wanted me. But you never know about these things. I had asked when they would be making their decision. I was told they would … [Read more...] about Am I running away again if I take this job?