I haven’t spoken to my peer support contact in over 2 weeks. In fact, I have been ignoring her calls, letting them go to voice mail. It’s not that I do not want to talk to her. She has been one of my most ardent supporters for the past three years. Her observations have helped me understand my medication choices. And she has given me the confidence to speak up for … [Read more...] about Depression Won’t Let Me Make the Call
Why do I feel lifeless when so many things are good? What is causing this enormous hole in my day-to-day feelings? The list for today was made yesterday. Many things on the list were crossed off as completed before lunchtime. So what? I just want to feel better. Feeling better is all I want. Not great, spectacular, or even above average. Simply better than I do. Faking … [Read more...] about Many Things Are Going Well, So Why Do I Feel Lackluster and Dull?
I know I should be thankful. I am alive, I am in good health, and my depression is not pushing me up against the wall. But boy do I feel rushed. Or maybe it’s a sense of urgency to get things done. It could be I am making a big deal out of what I have to do, and am making it bigger and therefore much more important than it needs to be (You know, the "hair on fire" … [Read more...] about What a week, and it’s only Tuesday
Lately, I’ve been feeling like there are not enough hours in the day. Now I understand everyone feels that way sometimes. It is a fact of life that things will pile up, then things will clear. One day we are almost frantic to get things done and the next we are trolling through Pinterest on our phone looking for a recipe for a crock pot breakfast. Why? Because we are … [Read more...] about Reminding myself I can control my attitude towards each day