That calm, clear feeling arrived two days ago. Even having the oven stop working after I used the auto-clean feature hasn’t dulled my sense of “I’m Ok.†I am enjoying this feeling. Understanding that this will not last forever, I am soaking it in. And the sense of balance is still with me today, as I start day … [Read more...] about Is My Life With Depression Really in Balance?
SMART Recovery
My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
When asked how I am doing, I can once again say “I’m doing good.†I know this because I am making plans again. When I was circling the drain, I could not envision a future. Heck, I was having trouble seeing the edge of the drain. And feeling up against the wall made it almost impossible to see or feel anything. Making it … [Read more...] about My Depression Is Better, But Where Is Happy?
Looking Back at My Past; In What Ways Have I Changed?
This question is something I have been thinking about for a while. It has been 22 months since I went to the hospital and was diagnosed with MDD, major depressive disorder. And my journey towards recovery and a balanced life has not been a straight line upward. I have experienced setbacks and hiccups along the way. Yet, here I am today, a much stronger version of … [Read more...] about Looking Back at My Past; In What Ways Have I Changed?
Sensational Ways Depression Sometimes Wins
Some days, there is no fairy tale ending. I wish it weren’t so. But depression and I are locked in a tug of war. Sometimes I can pull harder. And often depression pulls the hardest. Depression and I have been engaged in this tug of war for over 40 years. You would think I would understand the way it works by now. And the more tools I collect to deal … [Read more...] about Sensational Ways Depression Sometimes Wins
My Remarkable Journey to Just Be Me
My life has been me and then me as a title. Son, husband, father, writer, manager, greeting card company developer, resume writer, career coach, business owner, fisherman. And this is just the shortlist. After being in the hospital for major depressive disorder, I noticed this idea. It is the idea that I am not good enough just as myself. I am a good manager, father, … [Read more...] about My Remarkable Journey to Just Be Me
