What a pompous ass I have been. The reason I started blogging was an attempt on my part to figure out some order in the chaos brought on by my depression. With 43+ years of practice concealing it, saying I have depression is a new idea. And then working on the sneaky ways it invents itself so that I will go along with its cockamamie ideas without going down the rabbit hole … [Read more...] about Today I am thinking about who I am writing for
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My closet is finally organized, but don’t ask about my desk
I finally got the closet organized. I am back in my routine. In fact, I have added a step that has been hugely helpful. I now bring all my empty hangers for my shirts into the laundry room. When I take the shirts out of the drier, I immediately hang them up. This has made ironing my shirts so much easier. This time, when my laundry was finished, I took … [Read more...] about My closet is finally organized, but don’t ask about my desk
Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
While I have never been an NFL Quarterback, I am a smart, intelligent person who has accomplished many things in my lifetime. Yet I am also the person who has major depressive disorder and spent 43+ years doing everything in my power NOT to face it, NOT to acknowledge that I had it, NOT to deal with it. My hospital stay has changed all of that. Now my mantra is: … [Read more...] about Coach Depression sent in the play, why can’t I execute it?
Getting help keeping it in the lane
Today I am scattered. There is so much on my mind, I am having trouble slowing things down. Getting to the most important tasks is what I need to focus on. I have a list in my head, which would be easier to manage if I had written it down. But I can’t seem to stop long enough to write out the list. My drive to get these things off my plate, to … [Read more...] about Getting help keeping it in the lane
Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
Boy do I feel silly. Two days ago, I woke up feeling cloudy. My head was not right. I was feeling unfocused and I just couldn’t get going. So, my mind jumps immediately to this must be the work of depression. Something must be going on. I must be relapsing. I am headed down the rabbit hole into the dark, dank depths of depression, into the abyss … [Read more...] about Feeling cloudy may only be seasonal allergies, not a relapse into depression
