Today my Psychiatrist upped my Prozac to 40mg daily. This is double the 20 mg I have been taking since the end of April. Thinking about how this came to be, I am sad, mad and glad that it happened. Taking medication, along with therapy seems like a straight-forward process. You see a doctor, get a pill, your cured! Reality is nothing like that. I am sad because took a … [Read more...] about Doing the Drugs; Part II
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Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
On my calendar, the appointment was for 8:30 AM today. My appointments have been every two weeks since the summer. I even scribbled it on the card from the last appointment the new date before leaving his office two weeks ago. So why is someone else in with my therapist, and I am waiting another couple of weeks to see him? I didn’t do anything … [Read more...] about Two strikes against me and the day is just getting started
A Little Slack in the Chain
It’s not a lot to ask for, just a little space. Yes, I still want to be a part of your life. And yes, I care about you. But I need my space, too. It sounds selfish when I say it out loud. Even thinking I must sometimes say no is not in my DNA. I have been programmed from an early age to say yes. If you ask me to jump, often it is not just yes, but … [Read more...] about A Little Slack in the Chain
I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m afraid of
One thing is for sure, I am afraid of dying. Even as I was driving to the emergency room this spring, my deepest fear was that I was more terrified of death than I was seeking professional help. And believe me, I was scared shitless about going to the hospital. After all, I was the guy who always won. The guy who, at the last minute, figured a way out of the situation … [Read more...] about I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m afraid of
Can I Tell You the Truth?
Today, I don’t feel like writing. However, I feel I need to write. This is how I am working out my relationship with depression. Through these blog posts, I am creating a balanced life for myself. So, on a day where I do not feel like writing, I also feel guilt. Why shouldn’t I just suck it up and write? After all, that is what … [Read more...] about Can I Tell You the Truth?
