I’m not sure if I mentioned I hit a deer with my truck a few weeks ago. I never found the deer. It was after 11:30 PM and the road was a dark, two-lane affair through the country. I turned around twice and looked carefully at both sides of the road. Nothing. The next day, on the way to work, I checked again for any signs of the deer or maybe circling buzzards. Still … [Read more...] about I Almost “Should” All Over Myself This Morning.
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Why am I feeling so guilty for setting boundaries?
In the end, that is the whole premise of self-care. To take care of yourself. To understand what you need and be able to ask for it. Getting it may be something different, but the asking is important. Wanting to better understand boundaries and self-care, of course, I Googled it. Here is the last part of an article I found on the subject. How can you begin to … [Read more...] about Why am I feeling so guilty for setting boundaries?
I didn’t think I would be digging an animal grave today
This isn’t the first animal I have buried. But it is the first since my acknowledgement of depression. This new perspective on life makes the process very personal. I feel so bad for my family. And having lived with the cat for several years, the sadness at our loss is overwhelming. Kidney failure is a messy business, even for a cat. To be fine … [Read more...] about I didn’t think I would be digging an animal grave today
What’s the point of my life?
I thought I would be “cured†by now. Seven months after my hospitalization for Major Depressive Disorder, it feels like I should be on top of my game. I have medication helping me, a therapist, a psychiatrist and peer support. In September, I flew to Chicago and spent the weekend learning SMART Recovery at their 25th Annual Conference. I … [Read more...] about What’s the point of my life?
What is my motivation?
If I were an actor in a play, I would be asking the director that question. Seriously, I am not sure why I am doing the things I am doing. That being said, some things are clear. I travel to my day job because they have fantastic health benefits. This is worth the time and trouble of the long commute. I eat, and bath, do my laundry and make a fire in the woodstove to … [Read more...] about What is my motivation?
