I am so angry this morning. I cannot believe some of the decisions I have made in the past 43 years. It is infuriating to think that I have thrown away different opportunities that would have made significant changes in my life. My plan as I write this is to be mad at depression for the decisions I made along the way. But I was the one who took the action or failed … [Read more...] about I cannot get it back
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What do you know, it really is not about me?
I get so caught up in myself. An unhelpful thought pops into my head and the next thing I know, I am off living in the future. I had been concerned about having my work email on my phone. Finding excuses and reasons why I could not get it set up gave me control over my relationship with work. This past weekend, I was working with a customer and decided to add the work … [Read more...] about What do you know, it really is not about me?
Maybe the change in barometric pressure has me feeling down
I cannot put my finger on it. Today has been blah. Not overly bad, not overly good, just blah. My to-do list was long. The self-care part for me was to be outside, on the front porch, drinking my coffee, no cell phone, no laptop, just me and nature. That part of the day was relaxing. After that, I worked my list. I did manage to get the trash and recycling to … [Read more...] about Maybe the change in barometric pressure has me feeling down
My new idea in my relationship with depression
Recently, I was up against the wall. 100 or so days ago, I was sure that I had no way forward; I could not even see that there was a way. It was pitch black, or worse, colorless, and my life was emotionless, too. I was going through the motions, not appreciating or enjoying anything. Just before I checked into the hospital, I was forcing myself to eat. I dropped 12 … [Read more...] about My new idea in my relationship with depression
New thinking is helping me achieve balance in my life
How much time do you spend on self-care? I have been asked that question now for months. I have been jumping and running from one thing to another in my quest to learn all I can about depression. While this has been hugely helpful in understanding and facing depression, it has not left much time for other activities. And it turns out "life keepings happening while I learn … [Read more...] about New thinking is helping me achieve balance in my life
