This morning, I am having trouble getting the day started. I had trouble even making up my mind to get out of bed. It was already after 7 AM, and I am usually up and going by then. To help me decide whether to stay in bed or get up, I found myself recounting a rhyme I learned as a child. I-lit-a-match-and-it-went-out. The problem with this was, I … [Read more...] about Waking Up Depressed
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Why am I a Whirling Dervish?
Today I have all of these random thoughts swirling around in my head. Will writing them down calm them? Let's try. I’ve got to have this figured out RIGHT NOW. It’s not ok for me to not already have a plan in place. This is not normal for me and is very uncomfortable. It is causing me to be anxious. That anxiousness is … [Read more...] about Why am I a Whirling Dervish?
Doing The Drugs
Prozac gave me a new outlook on life. I am not afraid to say it. I see the news, I know the public sentiment. Being pro-Big Pharma is not the cool thing to do. Politics and business practices aside, this drug has given me a glimpse of my former self. For that, I am thankful, grateful and glad. My doctor said it will take four to six weeks before I will see the full … [Read more...] about Doing The Drugs
Depression Is Not My Boss
Depression is not my Boss - Day 1 This morning, I videotaped my thoughts about beginning this new journey. I look pretty rough in the video, but it's me, this morning. And as I write this, I am already having to deal with depression. As I face my life and what’s next, my first thoughts were “I am all alone, and I must figure this out by … [Read more...] about Depression Is Not My Boss
