30 weeks into my life with depression, I have plateaued. I have no clue as to what is next. It could be I am consolidating what I have learned, assessing what is working and then steeling myself for the next leg up. Or, I am nearer to the abyss than I have been in months, and all I need is a triggering event to throw me head long into that rabbit hole of doom and … [Read more...] about Have I reached a Plateau? Is it up or down from here?
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What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
There are so many more things I could be doing right now. How can I decide? That is what I am working on currently. It should make me happy, glad, excited to be wanted by others. To have people I admire say “you could be a big help and contributor to the success of our non-profit, our company, our group." This is very flattering. But at the same time, I am still … [Read more...] about What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
28 weeks into recovery, now I have residual depression?
I knew living with depression was not going to be a cakewalk. There are challenges and setbacks, successes and snags in my recovery. Now I find out that there are response and remission. I know I was thinking of my recovery as remission. How naive is that? Speaking with my Peer Advocate today, I heard the term residual depression for the first time. Until today, I did … [Read more...] about 28 weeks into recovery, now I have residual depression?
What a week, and it’s only Tuesday
I know I should be thankful. I am alive, I am in good health, and my depression is not pushing me up against the wall. But boy do I feel rushed. Or maybe it’s a sense of urgency to get things done. It could be I am making a big deal out of what I have to do, and am making it bigger and therefore much more important than it needs to be (You know, the "hair on fire" … [Read more...] about What a week, and it’s only Tuesday
I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?
It’s not all or nothing. Feeling a little dull this morning doesn’t mean the end of the world s coming. In fact, just getting up has helped with the cloudiness. And then pouring a mug of black coffee and heading out to the front porch has helped, too. Maybe my cloudiness is related to the fog laying on the ground this morning. It is cool, almost cold, and the air … [Read more...] about I’m feeling partly cloudy this morning. Is there a storm ahead?