How I stack up against others is not the issue. I end up “shoulding” all over myself when I think about others. Either I “should have helped,” “I shouldn’t have helped,” “I should have seen…” or “Why didn’t I see… " What a cluster. There is no good answer, but there is plenty of pain and suffering and emotional distress when you go down the “should of trail.” I am … [Read more...] about My progress is my own business
Archives for September 2019
I want to say thank you for yesterday.
Focusing on the one thing I could control, I decided to look at my attitude towards the weekend. On Friday, I had decided to understand how I needed to think if I was going to relax and enjoy the day. It was clear that I normally would be stressed out about not doing things I was thinking about because family was visiting. Having company requires a change in attitude. … [Read more...] about I want to say thank you for yesterday.
I do the same thing every morning
There seems to be a routine in place. I didn’t realize I was so predictable. It doesn’t matter when I go to bed, I am up between 7 and 730 am. I put a t-shirt on and my slip-on sandals and head to the bathroom. After using the facilities, I take my Prozac. In order to make sure that I do not miss a dose, or take a second one because I can’t remember, I have gotten a pill … [Read more...] about I do the same thing every morning
Can I really take the weekend off?
I don’t know about this. Taking two days to spend with family visiting from out of town? Not going to my day job because I requested off. Not going into my home office and writing? Not worrying about mowing the south 40, or edging around the porch with the weed eater? How is that even possible to not think, worry, obsess, or be anxious about taking care of these … [Read more...] about Can I really take the weekend off?
What are you telling me and why should I care?
This is not how I like to feel. Yet last night, that is exactly what was going through my mind. It wasn’t “tell me more,” it was, “when are you going to shut your pie-hole?” I feel terrible admitting that I had these thoughts swirling through my head as the person was talking. You are going to spend 5 minutes telling me this? How long is five minutes in dog years? … [Read more...] about What are you telling me and why should I care?