I'm off to work. I will write later. I feel that if I slow down or stay in one place too long, depression will find me. So I keep moving. And I know it is harder to hit a moving target. This is another incentive to stay on my toes. The concept applies to my eating habits, too. I eat very, very fast. … [Read more...] about This is true for me
Archives for November 2019
Doing the Drugs; Part II
Today my Psychiatrist upped my Prozac to 40mg daily. This is double the 20 mg I have been taking since the end of April. Thinking about how this came to be, I am sad, mad and glad that it happened. Taking medication, along with therapy seems like a straight-forward process. You see a doctor, get a pill, your cured! Reality is nothing like that. I am sad because took a … [Read more...] about Doing the Drugs; Part II
I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
Well, maybe I just did not tell him everything. That sounds a lot better. Yet, in the end, I wasn’t honest about how I was doing. My years of practice hiding and concealing my depression kicked in when I went in to see him last week. It had been three months since I first saw him, and I made a lot of progress. With all the work I have done to understand depression, … [Read more...] about I can’t believe I lied to my Psychiatrist
What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
There are so many more things I could be doing right now. How can I decide? That is what I am working on currently. It should make me happy, glad, excited to be wanted by others. To have people I admire say “you could be a big help and contributor to the success of our non-profit, our company, our group." This is very flattering. But at the same time, I am still … [Read more...] about What am I waiting for, an engraved invitation?
28 weeks into recovery, now I have residual depression?
I knew living with depression was not going to be a cakewalk. There are challenges and setbacks, successes and snags in my recovery. Now I find out that there are response and remission. I know I was thinking of my recovery as remission. How naive is that? Speaking with my Peer Advocate today, I heard the term residual depression for the first time. Until today, I did … [Read more...] about 28 weeks into recovery, now I have residual depression?