My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Depression Is Not My Boss

Is It Possible To Measure Depression and My Actions?

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I am spending time researching how I measure up. Are my depressive episodes my fault, depression’s fault, or nobody’s fault? Have I had a choice in each of the big meltdowns I have endured over the past 40+ years? Should I be blaming depression? Are these episodes the byproduct of not having tools and not wanting to know what was going … [Read more...] about Is It Possible To Measure Depression and My Actions?

Unhelpful Thinking Says There’s No Time, Not Even For Self-care

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The recycling must be taken for pick up tomorrow and the trash must go to the landfill. There is no publicly funded trash or recycling pick-up in the rural community we live in. If you want trash pickup at your home, you must pay a company to come and get it. Cardboard and aluminum cans can still be recycled at the landfill. Plastics, glass, and everything else is no longer … [Read more...] about Unhelpful Thinking Says There’s No Time, Not Even For Self-care

What Am I Worried About, It’s Just the World?

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I am all over the place today, but If you read to the end, I finally get out what I’m thinking.Authors Note Our heatwave on the east coast is mild compared to the temperatures recorded on the west coast. And we have been spared raging wildfires like the ones consuming thousand and thousands of acres in the northwest. A few days of afternoon thunderstorms, … [Read more...] about What Am I Worried About, It’s Just the World?

Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?

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Yes, I was being smug and self-righteous about my assumed success! The 399th blog post I titled: Two Years Later, My Depression Has Lifted. That was April 22nd of this year. I waited almost 6 weeks to write my 400th blog post. There was a feeling I had in April that I was not only in balance but cured. I no longer needed to think about depression or worry about its … [Read more...] about Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?