I just want a day off from pushing the rock up the hill. Is that too much to ask? Day after day after day I wake up and stare at the same freaky rock. Some days, I admit, that rock looks like a huge boulder and the hill look like a vertical wall of solid granite. These are my “half-dome†days, when the hill looks to me like Half Dome at … [Read more...] about Today I Am Putting My Depression in Perspective
A Decision To Control My Attitude With 101 Coping Statements For Depression And Anxiety
Being in control is important to me. I think most people seek this in some fashion. Even the most depressed and anxious people have their limits. And I know there are lines I will not cross. Sometimes I learn where these lines are when I explode. Tamping down my responses, I am a powder keg ready to explode. I pack more and more emotions into this vessel, in my attempts … [Read more...] about A Decision To Control My Attitude With 101 Coping Statements For Depression And Anxiety
I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot
I don’t get it, why am I feeling so average, so run-of-the-mill? From a big picture perspective, things are going great. The job is exciting as I am getting to do a lot of teaching. I’m planning again, not just hoping to make it through the day. My daily to-do list is getting longer, which is something I thrive on. And even as … [Read more...] about I Want To Think I Can, But Depression Has Me Feeling I Cannot
What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”
I’m stuck in the doldrums again. Maybe it’s the fact that it is August and things are just hot. People are in vacation mode after missing last year due to the Pandemic. Everyone is getting cabin fever and is doing things to escape the house. In June, we got out of town and visited family for the first time in more than a … [Read more...] about What happened to “fake it ‘til you make it?”
Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?
It has been months since it I've had a sucicidal thought. And while I know that I am not circling the drain, it is still a bit unnerving to have a suicidal thought flash in my head. Things have really been going well. I am healthy and am finally beginning to shed some of my Covid pounds. There have been many positive occasions in the past few months. A wedding, a first … [Read more...] about Why Is Depression Having Me Think the S-Word Again?
