Photo by Hello I'm Nik on UnsplashI have been depressed, with high-functioning (concealed) depression for over 50 years.It wasn’t until I spent 4 days in 5 East that I faced my depression. Until then, I had gotten through each episode and never looked back. There was no critique, no sense that I should do something different. It was over so let’s just move on and forget all … [Read more...] about Depressed? Why I Hadn’t Considered Myself as Having Depression
Change Triangle
If Only I Felt Happy, Maybe I Could Be Happy
Or do I need to “fake it until I make it?”I know all about attitude and how it is the only thing I have control over. But taking that information and turning it into reality is not the same thing. So how do I turn my desire for the feeling of joy, of happiness, into a reality?Over the centuries, many famous, well-known people, have used this technique to keep a positive … [Read more...] about If Only I Felt Happy, Maybe I Could Be Happy
Am I Able to Be Happier, to Feel Joy?
I wish I could say yes to joy, to being happier.There are many emotions I am familiar with, but joy and happiness are rarely one of them. OK is the operative word. If someone asks how I am doing, I stretch the truth and say that I am “darn glad to be here.” Now while that isn’t a lie, it is often far from my real expectations.I am familiar with the change triangle and the … [Read more...] about Am I Able to Be Happier, to Feel Joy?
Why Can’t I Get Joy into My Head?
It’s seems such an easy thing, for everyone has an idea of what their own joy looks like.So why is it I cannot feel the emotion? Instead, I play defense and do anything I can to avoid joy. Joy is a risk. And suddenly I cannot figure out a way to take a risk. I’ve got depression on the run, or at least sitting in the back row.Why chance depression’s return by taking a risk?Now I … [Read more...] about Why Can’t I Get Joy into My Head?
Where Has My Emotion Of Joy Gone?
I have experienced all of the other emotions over the past 40 months.Having been introduced to the change triangle by a therapist. I now refer to it, but I don’t always think about it, even when it would be most helpful. Anyway, here it is again in case you haven’t seen it in my earlier blog posts.I have spent a lot of time in sadness.We are on a first-name basis. There is not … [Read more...] about Where Has My Emotion Of Joy Gone?
