My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Depression

I’m In Arizona Four Days Trekking the Grand Canyon

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I don’t know where to start; there are so many beginnings. For the trip, I packed all of my medications into plastic days tabs. I am back to the 450 mg. dose of Wellbutrin XL each morning. This summer, I stopped adding the 150 mg. dose to the 300 mg. For some reason, through the summer, my pharmacy wasn’t able to get the smaller 150 mg. dose of Wellbutrin XL. This seemed … [Read more...] about I’m In Arizona Four Days Trekking the Grand Canyon

A Better Tool to Help Anyone with A Mental Health Emergency

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Licensed under the Unsplash+ License It’s so simple; I’m surprised it has taken this long to go national. Of course, it makes sense.  I think about my cell phone number. I have had the same number for 15 years. The area code is central New Jersey. If a first aid responder needed to find me based on my area code, finding me would be impossible. My cell number is … [Read more...] about A Better Tool to Help Anyone with A Mental Health Emergency

Why Did My Therapist Want Me to Lighten Up?

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Photo by Kostiantyn Vierkieiev on Unsplash She wanted me to know that my therapy was not being scored, that there would be no test later. There are no right or wrong answers. And everything I say in therapy stays in therapy. But after three sessions, I can understand why she would say that. Lighten up was what I heard, don’t be so hard on yourself, … [Read more...] about Why Did My Therapist Want Me to Lighten Up?