My Concealed Depression

My thoughts on my lifetime of Major Depressive Disorder with suicidal ideation.

Mental Health

Is It Possible To Measure Depression and My Actions?

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I am spending time researching how I measure up. Are my depressive episodes my fault, depression’s fault, or nobody’s fault? Have I had a choice in each of the big meltdowns I have endured over the past 40+ years? Should I be blaming depression? Are these episodes the byproduct of not having tools and not wanting to know what was going … [Read more...] about Is It Possible To Measure Depression and My Actions?

Unhelpful Thinking Says There’s No Time, Not Even For Self-care

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The recycling must be taken for pick up tomorrow and the trash must go to the landfill. There is no publicly funded trash or recycling pick-up in the rural community we live in. If you want trash pickup at your home, you must pay a company to come and get it. Cardboard and aluminum cans can still be recycled at the landfill. Plastics, glass, and everything else is no longer … [Read more...] about Unhelpful Thinking Says There’s No Time, Not Even For Self-care

Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?

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Yes, I was being smug and self-righteous about my assumed success! The 399th blog post I titled: Two Years Later, My Depression Has Lifted. That was April 22nd of this year. I waited almost 6 weeks to write my 400th blog post. There was a feeling I had in April that I was not only in balance but cured. I no longer needed to think about depression or worry about its … [Read more...] about Seriously, I Wasted 2 ½ Months Not Writing About My Depression?