I’m all over the board today. Thinking about, obsessing about, how I will spend my days has really set off a chain of thoughts in my mind. And some realizations. The Prozac must be working as intended. I have not had any suicidal thoughts in days. Not that I have ever acted upon them. Suicidal ideation is the clinical term they used when I was in the … [Read more...] about “Does it even matter?” Hey, that’s the depression talking.
Self Care
Hurry up and wait
That’s how I am beginning to feel. As I get a better understanding of depression and my responsibilities for keeping it under control, I am slowing down. This is new to me. Being very competitive, I am always measuring things. How many steps to the top entrance to the building, how many tiles on the wall in the men’s room. How much are sales up year over year? So, hearing … [Read more...] about Hurry up and wait
10 self-care things I am doing to reduce stress
Let me tell you what I’ve learned. Up until six weeks ago, I never paid much attention to how I was taking care of myself. I didn’t understand the value of making time for me. It seemed so selfish and “about me.†It turns out that is exactly what self-care is all about. And I can tell practicing … [Read more...] about 10 self-care things I am doing to reduce stress
You Won’t Believe what I Wrote to Myself
“I am writing because you are enough.†This is the first line of the card I wrote to myself when I was in the hospital. I wrote this to myself over a month ago. The pastor who provided the cards mailed it four weeks later. I waited four days after getting the card before opening it. When I first took the envelope out of the mailbox, I did … [Read more...] about You Won’t Believe what I Wrote to Myself
I hadn’t seen the benefit before
Today, I spoke to a professional. The Director of the Region Ten facility talked with me for over an hour. I had spent some time yesterday writing down questions to ask. That was very helpful. Also, having read up on their intake process, I had an idea of what was going to happen. It was much less painful than I expected. The goal of the meeting was to discuss what my … [Read more...] about I hadn’t seen the benefit before
