When I was up against the wall, in the days leading up to my checking into the hospital, I was forcing myself to eat. I did not have an appetite. I was drinking 86 or more ounces of water each day but eating very few calories. So, here’s the story. In the seven months after retiring, I had put on 20 pounds. This made sense, as I was now sitting most of … [Read more...] about I Gained 10 pounds – I Must be Cured!
Some days I feel like myself
When Will I Ask These 12 Better Questions?
This is one of the key skills I must learn if I am to make sure depression is not my boss. Asking better questions, not just hearing the voice of depression will keep me from making impulsive, rash, and often destructive decisions. In the hospital, I was given a handout titled “How to Challenge Unhelpful Thinking Styles.†My thanks to the nurses … [Read more...] about When Will I Ask These 12 Better Questions?
Am I seeing the future clearly?
Today I am thinking I can work again. Not that I haven’t been, but the pace and intensity I feel just ratcheted up a notch. This is only the second day since I was in the hospital for depression that I have felt like I could really get back into my business. The crazy thing is I am not reinventing the wheel. Everything I outlined to start doing again in … [Read more...] about Am I seeing the future clearly?
Is there something about Mondays?
Two Monday’s in a row I have felt almost normal. Last week I was at home, making the final enhancements to the workshops I am giving. This Monday, I presented the workshop twice. Once in the morning, and once in the afternoon. Tomorrow I am doing the same thing. A 3-hour morning session, then I will drive to a different venue and repeat it in the afternoon. To be able to … [Read more...] about Is there something about Mondays?
How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
For the past two hours, I have been me. Not super happy or sad, just me. How is this possible? My depression had been keeping me from myself. The Prozac must have reached a saturation point in my system. Or the hand of fate moved it to the side. Or my decision this morning to block out chunks of time for my depression, and chunks of time to work, is … [Read more...] about How Did This Happen? I’m Me!
