Every time I think I have gotten all the pieces sorted out regarding my treatment for depression, a new wrinkle appears. Learning to live with depression and understanding my relationship with it has been eye-opening. Going from concealing it, not facing it, never even saying the word to now acknowledging it has been a roller coaster ride. And on top of that, I am dealing … [Read more...] about Why I’m Still Dealing with The Fallout From MDD
The cost of success
What Makes Me Feel Obliged to Struggle with Self-Care?
On the surface, the term self-care seems straight-forward. I Googled® the definition just to be sure my assessment of self-care was in line with general notions. Based on this definition, I feel I understand what the idea of self-care is all about. self-care /ËŒselfˈker/ noun the practice of taking action to preserve or improve one's … [Read more...] about What Makes Me Feel Obliged to Struggle with Self-Care?
After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
Asking for professional medical help was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I started writing the morning after I was released from the hospital. In 5 North, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, with suicidal ideation. Feeling up against the wall, seeking professional medical advice was the least hard of the three choices I felt I had. Choice #1 was to … [Read more...] about After Getting Help for Myself, I Can Now Share with Others
What it Feels Like to Not Get the Job
I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t disappointed. Being one of three candidates for the position, there was not a huge amount of competition. And I felt I had the experience and the proven skills the position called for. So, to receive a call and be told someone else got the position was a bit of a letdown. But I am not circling the drain. READ: … [Read more...] about What it Feels Like to Not Get the Job
Am I Afraid to Heal?
Is depression my reason for living? After all, I have grown up with depression. We have been together for over 43 years, probably longer. And much of my life was spent not facing my depression. Heck, I was the expert on hiding my depression every time it would come around. I could certainly be the poster child for concealed depression. And then, I can sweep the … [Read more...] about Am I Afraid to Heal?
